Showing posts with label heart. Show all posts
Showing posts with label heart. Show all posts

Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Luck: chance or made?


How often do even those of us who are supposedly (and I use the word advisedly!) not superstitious avoid walking under a ladder, stepping on a crack (now how in the world that could have “cracked my mother’s back” I’ll never know), or have a favorite color, number, object etc. that brings us luck? We all would like to believe that it is a matter of chance.

I have periods where consulting my horoscope amuses me, makes me believe in it – or not depending upon whether I like the message or not – or I think, shows me a sign. Most of the time of course we reject or accept the messages along our paths by how we wish them to be and not at all upon the facts of any given situation.

For those who win fame and fortune we tend to think that they were “lucky”, that something outside themselves allowed them to achieve that status. We do this so that we can believe that, we too, with minimal input can win that lottery, buy that fancy car, upgrade our flight, vacation or whatever, purchase a new home. The key here is believing that we only have to trust in Lady Luck to achieve our heart’s desires.

We rarely, if ever, look deeper into what let the athlete win, what allowed the actor/author/word of your choice become famous. Should we do so, even then we tend to downplay the hard work, the repetition, the many hours spent practicing their art and say, but yes, without luck they still wouldn’t have “made it”.

And we won’t even go into the luck, or lack thereof, in many lives.
Mostly it’s perception: I have had bad things happen to and around me, nevertheless I have always felt lucky. Feeling lucky has pushed me to make my own luck – or continue what I perceive to be as “my” luck. If I play the lottery, I feel lucky even if I don’t win (and I can’t remember the last time I even won the price of the ticket!) as often I will have the “replay” – once even three times in a row. If I sprain an ankle, break my arm or otherwise have a health issue, surely it is because something worse would have happened, had I not.

Signs abound of my "luck": I live in my own home, have a car, two children both of whom currently have jobs, no major health issues, enough money to indulge in one of my favorite activities – travel – or to purchase books, go to concerts. Statistically I am better off than most of the world. In some ways that is luck, the luck of being born in the right place at the right time to the right culture, in other ways I have contributed by studying, working hard, saving and living wisely (i.e. no credit other than a house mortgage).

Ah, but the true "luck": that of having family and friends, of being happy is something that I haven't purchased but have been blessed to receive.

Still it sure didn’t hurt my feelings of luck to find a four-leaf clover and another stone heart on one of last weekend’s walks. They just place themselves along my path begging to be discovered and if that isn’t luck, I don’t know what is!




Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Reverting to childhood


     One of the reasons, in my way of thinking, for wanting grandchildren is so that I can watch Winnie the Pooh without apologies. I came late to these stories as we were encouraged to read “real” stories as opposed to fantasies and TV only entered my life at age 10 – I Love Lucy having been our mainstay. There were no VHS videos, there were no DVDs. However, we were far from being deprived as we had the whole world (i.e. the front yard, the middle yard and the backyard) to play in, an ivy patch that held dragons, snakes and anything else with which to frighten ourselves: we wouldn’t have had time amongst the piano practice, the homework, the household chores and the play to have watched even had we had access.

I discovered Winnie the Pooh with the birth of my own children and again, due to lack of access and the fact that they were boys, our choices of reading leaned more to the trucks, tractors, or “Finding Waldo”. Still I brushed up against Winnie the Pooh occasionally and fell in love with the whole of the cast.

Imagine my delight in coming across on FB (which I consult more than use) a posting from
the site www.aconsciousrethink.com about Winnie the Pooh quotations.

Very hard to choose a favorite so I may have to write more than one blog, but for today a direct quote:
“On love:
“How do you spell ‘love’?” – Piglet
“You don’t spell it…you feel it.” – Pooh“


Sunday, February 14, 2016

364 + 1 days in a year or…


Happy Valentine’s Day.

I have always been a wee bit allergic to Valentine’s Day:
      as a child we had to make cards for everyone in the class so what was the point?
      As a teenager, I seemed to never get a card from anyone that I was currently interested in, if even vaguely and of course wouldn’t have dared send one to any of my crushes (hmmm… maybe it was the same for them?)
      As a young adult with no boyfriend, it was just another day
      As an engaged person – there was one before the wedding and I can’t say that I remember anything about it.
      As a married woman there were enough other important events – I mean Christmas wasn’t that far past, and after son number one we had just had his birthday; then there were all the upcoming birthdays – so that it didn’t get celebrated either unless we had ski holidays. That usually had me writing bad poetry (wonder if I will ever come across any of those – paper hoarder that I am).
      As a widow – well what interest would there be?

I have been fortunate enough in my life to have had friends and family who believed more in the Carpe Diem school of thought; presents or cards came any old time and even birthdays quite often got celebrated way later.

Love – and yes I know that Valentine’s Day is supposed to be only romantic love – can’t be confined to just one day and to celebrate it then and yet not be loving the rest of the 364 days of the year holds no interest for me. 

Also love comes in many shapes and forms and can no more be confined to just “romantic” love than water to just lakes and oceans: either one celebrates it in however small a way every day, or it simply doesn’t truly exist.

So Happy Let’s-all-be-in-love-with-each-other-and-Life Day. Let’s all be kind at least 364 days of the year: love will find a way and hearts come in all sizes, shapes and materials.

 
hand-made heart from Harmony, CA, USA

Swiss coffee cream cover

natural moss heart from a forest walk

Monday, December 9, 2013

To thy own self be true, or…


Following ones heart or intuition.

I was brought up in a generation where we were more or less taught (if not verbally, certainly by example and implication) that most everyone else’s needs came before ours: that the polite thing to do was to be accommodating; that we “owed” a lot to anyone in the family or close circle of friends and to be available – always – for others.

I am either growing up, or growing more egotistical.
I should have (note the should – although I am trying to follow someone else’s suggestion of replacing “should” with “could”, I am often not very successful – yet another blog) made a trip to be with my in-laws this week – celebrating an important birthday with my sister-in-law.  A 7-hour train ride each way and a few days there.

Recent events (some too horrible to write about), however, have gotten me down and I was starting to resent having (again note the “have” instead of “could” or “privilege”) to go; to putting on a cheerful face when I am not in the slightest inclined to do so; to putting others (perceived?) comfort before my own; in short to sublimating my own feelings in the service of sparing others.

After a long discussion yesterday with my younger son and his girlfriend, of their repeating back to me what I was articulating, of judicious questions as to why I felt the way I did, there were a couple of remarks that had me thinking, in particular when my son said, “Mom why don’t you apply what you have taught us? Listen to yourself, believe in your feelings – whether others agree or not, your own thoughts are important and you should come number one in your own plans”.

Now, was the phone call to my in-laws to say that I wasn’t coming easy? No. Did all the attempts to make me feel guilty (“I was so looking forward to it, everyone will be there, we may never all be together again”)work?  Yes. However, I held firm, knowing that someone who was liable to get teary at many remarks or thoughts was not going to add to the party. That, at this point in my life, I couldn’t spare the week just to please someone else, be they ever so close and that for once I needed to take care of myself.

I will go in the spring when my older son has time and can accompany me.
If it is not the perfect solution, it is a compromise in between other’s needs and mine.
Selfish? Some will see it that way. In my present mood I choose to label it Self-preservation. Remember, one can only be as good to others, as one is to oneself.

This above all: to thine own self be true; And it must follow, as the night the day; Thou canst not then be false to any man.
William Shakespeare, 'Hamlet,' Act I, Scene iii

Ceramic heart from Harmony, California